Things to ponder

I roused at 3 AM this morning, looked at the bedside clock, and noticed the alarm wasn’t set. I then completely woke up and frantically searched my brain for today’s schedule: did I have a call with India this AM? At what wake up time do I need to set the alarm? Thank goodness I hadn’t overslept and had time to remedy this mistake…then I realized that today is a holiday and I don’t have to work.

It’s not as if I’ve had a crazy work schedule lately, but the switch back to Standard Time and our project load have made my mornings a bit of a challenge. What used to be twice weekly calls with the India team at 7 or 7:30 AM has now transitioned into more like 3 times a week at 6:30 AM. After the calls are over, I usually have to dash off to catch a train to the office and get on with the rest of my work day.

My whole morning schedule has to shift to an earlier start time which is a really hard for me during these days where daylight is a precious resource. I hate getting up in the dark. While some people don’t like leaving work when it is dark, I don’t mind that so much. But heaving myself out of bed well before the sunrise is just not something I find pleasant. At least we haven’t had to also deal with the really cold weather yet.

We’ve had a relatively warm fall so far and I’ve seen a few insects around on some of our warmer days: bees, gnats, etc. I still have broccoli flowering in the garden and it provides a nice touch of color in what is an otherwise drab palette outside. By now the flaming color of the leaves has dulled to russets and browns, and the sky is more often overcast and gray. It’s time to work on indoor projects and plan for next year. Last weekend I got my first garden catalog, in fact, and I just received another one in the mail 2 days ago.

I’ve been diligently working away on some knitting projects, but I think my main “indoor project” these days has been dating. I’ve been out with 4 different guys now and have been learning a lot from the experience. With the exception of that first date where I went against my better judgment and met him in a bar, I’ve arranged first dates in the day-time for lunch, coffee/tea, and once for a walk along the lake. I’ve met interesting people and had some good conversations, so I consider the dating experiment a success so far. And I’ve been out several more times with one of these guys. Now I wonder what to do next: keep setting up first dates so I can continue meeting new people and “exercising my options”, or stop meeting new guys and just concentrate on getting to know the one guy better?

Considering that my experience in dating has been so limited, I think I’m doing pretty well, but I also have to figure this part out. I was talking with Rachael about it last night and she asked me: what’s your goal? Hmmm…what is my goal, indeed. I’m not really sure. I know I want to have someone in my life: someone I enjoy being with, sharing common experiences and interests with, learning more about a new person and his life. Other than that, I really have no other goal at this time. I’m not looking to get married again or expecting that I’ll be swept off my feet and whisked away to a fantasy life.

For now, I’m enjoying my time with B and I’m thinking that should be enough. So I shall be thankful for this today, along with all the other good things in my life: supportive family members and friends; a good job/career and colleagues; a warm, comfortable home that I own; my garden; animal companionship; and the ability to afford some pleasant diversions.

Happy Thanksgiving to all!


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